Lamenting

Biggest remorse in my life right now is the fact that seeing many of my cousins, those that are even less educated than me, making big bucks, slowly and steadily becoming a millionaire, with their own hard work no less. While I am still here, dragging myself from sleep every morning, still not knowing what to do with my life. Still and still...

Self consolation no longer works and I don't even believe my own lies of what matters most is happiness anymore.