Thinking...

Thinking if I should reblog, not that there are many readers, but it is definitely for my sake. Have been swamped by my own problems (yes I have problems) and other people's problem. Getting stressed out with no way to vent. I cant retalk other people's problem and I simply dissed sharing mine.
Probably turning 30 in one hour's time got to do with all these melancholic feeling.

Gah~ Laters..

I think I'm loving it!!

I have never written that I quit my job. A job where I love my bosses, colleagues and what I do. I quit, just that moment in time, within split second I quit. Everyone was surprised, but I think I need a break from it all. The IT stuffs are suffocating me.
Okay, so I wanted to be jobless for a while. As long as possible actually, trying to leech off Daddy as long as I can. Apparently, leeching just isn't my luck. I found a job. Went for the interview for fun, a little nervous but not as much as I thought I would be. Wow, I was amazed at how confident I am now!!! Must be training from my ex bosses. Heh!!
So anyway, the interview went well. The Boss was warm, humble and looked nice!! So I was accepted. As what??? Legal secretary!!! Yayyynesss..... I have a new title.

I think I'll be brave

I think I'll be braveStarting with youBut I'll fall away if you tell me toI'd rather be wrongThen hope that I'm right'Cause I can't go on with this all inside
I think I'll be braveAnd say how I've wanted you
Going around inside my headTrying to talk me out of itSo lonely...Too lonelyIf there's a possibilityYou turn and run away with meI need to...To show you before it fades
I think I'll be braveStarting with youBut I'll fall away if you tell me toI'd rather be wrongThan hope that I'm right'Cause I can't go on with this all inside
I think I'll be braveAnd say how I've wanted you
Over the bridge and down a waysFar off ahead I see a faceI follow, it's swallows meWhere do i beginWhenever you say you let me inI need to...To show you before it fades
I think I'll be braveStarting with youBut I'll fall away if you tell me toI'd rather be wrongThan hope that I'm right'Cause I can't go on with this all inside
I think I'll be braveAnd say how I've wanted you
Say how I've wanted youSay how I've wanted youAnd say how I've wanted you
I think I'll be brave
Going around inside my headTrying to talk me out of itSo lonely...

"I think I'll be brave, starting with you", those words that I wished I could say to you. For once, be brave, starting with you and I know you will say to leave the rest to you. Just be brave for this one time and don't let go. In the dark, with all my might I pried your hands off mine as the rest clapped off to the SDE. Don't you know how tightly my heart hanged on to yours? As your eyes gripped onto mine, daring me not to let go. I know that if I let go this once, it will be forever, and you know it too well, too, but I did it anyway.
I'm sorry, again that I cannot be brave, for you, for me or for us. I'm sorry it has got to be all your pain, your sacrifice, more than mine. 
Till we meet again, I hope I will be brave. 

Super excited!!

Hehehehe... It's coming in about a month or so!!! Bro is finally getting married!! I'm going to have a new sister in law!! We are all super excited with the preparations, rsvps and all the last minute arrangement, especially the last minute dieting. LOL! Looking forward to meet the old buddies that I haven't met in ages. Bro and I have almost the same gang of friends, so it's like a reunion for me, too. Also being swamped by the thought of having close to 40 relatives going down under, WOW! 

I haven't found my dress yet, so hopefully I can get one soonest.
Bro's best men have been decided, Mr Mad Guy, Alex and Johnson. Never met the Johnson guy before! But we are going to be entertained by Mr Mad Guy and Alex definitely, lol!

Looking forward, for now it's diet diet diet!!!

Photography NO NO!!!

Super irked by the thousands of pictures that some so called photographers uploaded on Facebook that has all the bloody same poses with 1 mm difference of angle in taking them. It's like seeing tens of the same meaningless photos. OMG, please filter your photos!!!

Huh wad??

I have my fair or sometimes not so fair share of losing friends. I believe as friends, especially close ones, the ones that have been together through ups and downs, through tears and laughters, there shouldnt be any prohibition. I believe in direct confrontation and fight it out, if we made it out, we will be stronger than ever. Yet, if we don't, we just don't, at least we knew why we grew apart. Look at those that stays by my side, man.. we are so comfortable with each other and we knew the darkest secret of each other yet we still love each other that much.
There are some friends that took me so much for granted and thought I will always be there when they needed me. Remember this, I never needed you in my life. Being nice is just me being me. I will not try to please anybody. I will not go around asking everybody why are you mad at me or whatever. If you want to walk away, I will smile and say goodbye. *shrugs*

$$$

I don't know how someone could be so calculative about money? It's tiring and it makes me so much want to be calculative, too. One can have such an elaborate lifestyle, not thinking twice about buying hundred over dollars unimportant things, yet they can count up to a dollar or two over a friend. I have no issue in paying more of my share, even though I am taking less, but why can't they do the same for me? It's hurtful to have such a calculative friend seriously, it's like the more I can give, the more they will take. Maybe I should learn to be as calculative too and see whether they would be irritated, but most of the time I can't do it, as I myself would be too embarrassed to be calculative. Maybe this is why I can never have any savings... lol!