Stress??? Whatt..???

Recently been under a lot of pain caused by some unknown headache, migraine as they called it, only at the left side of my head. Being someone who has never gotten any headache for the whole of my 28 years of my life, it scared the shit out of me. Went to the doctor, who has given me some anti-depressant or anti-stress medicine. Been asked many times if I am under a lot of pressure at work or any stress at home, etc, basically stress.

Asked myself on my way home if I am under a lot of stress. Not sure if I know what stress really meant. Well, pressures, disturbing thoughts, I think most of us will have it. However, to what extent will it be considered too much? For someone like me to be under stress is a little unbelievable, I laugh all the time, do crazy stunts, say too much sarcastic jokes, who will know? I don't even know, I can't even tell. Well, a colleague recently said, maybe I am not unhappy with my life, but neither am I happy.

Well, I think many people will have the same feeling, life is mundane, boring even. Wake up early, think about work, come back late and sleep. Everyday is just waiting for the weekend to come. Weekend if it isn't hanging out with friends, it's catching up with the resting time.

Then, what is life?

Talent doesnt come easy

This doesnt come easy from someone as goofy as him (the wise words). Think he must have felt strongly about his music, his work and the efforts he so tirelessly put in.

" For some people, talent comes free. For some people, it must be bought with money, sweat and blood. Just like the majority of people, the free stuffs are always being taken for granted. Being a singer and liking to sing is an entirely different entities. Once something you like to do becomes a job, it changes shape into a burden, a pressure, a full blown stress machine. "

He said he constantly had to improve and while he is young now, he has to make himself well known enough to last him in his senior years. That is when he no longer can perform, but to be known enough to be sought after to coach the younger generation. That is making sense of his current work craze. He is restricted in time, food, friends, love life and life itself.

Well, recently I have gotten the chance to take a picture for an event for a friend, 3 hours straight of picture taking. With responsibility of taking decent pictures, making sure what needed to be taken is taken. I came home tired as hell. I remembered during the 3 hours I grew impatient, tired of taking pictures, something that as a hobby, I love it like hell. In the middle of it, I just wanted to go to hell with it, of course I was still burdened with my hangover from the night before, but really the feeling wasn't that good. Work is still work, I guess... Haha!

21 days ago at Aquanova

Lol!! I was searching through my notes in my phone earlier and found these gibberish note that somehow I typed when I was high on Martell!!!

Can you decipher them?

Yup here i am half high half low. Typing super fast on my iphone. Its super! Watching super hot girls with super sleazy men. N super sleazy men walking aroung asking girls to danxe. Waitng to see whos drunk enoimgj to be brouhjt home. The band is uper hith love it! Helloq nightlofe. M. It's i loce rock n roll now. !!!!!! Saw a gurl in a prety gown. I funno why. Hehe. All i knoe os inloveroxk n rolll!!!! The girl songer loll lole some dj. Lopez or wad. Lil. The huys hanging lver protectively over their girlfriend. The gf hanging on loke he will be lost to the rhthlmg gurating Read: rhythm gyrating girls. Hehehehe trie dto fix my one up one down eyelash in the toilet. The girls here are swaying, or am i? I dunno. Anyway, i looked the same as i came on 2 mins ago. So here i am. Well at 1 am nobody nothes about wad jphn lollona is sintkng rverybody kisy move to their own misic which ks fascinaying Read: nobody notices about wad John Mollina is singing, everybody just move to their own music which is fascinating!!!!her ei am dancing subconsciously wishing it will burn off mu 1 kg at leasy. But woth yhe amouy of hard liquor im drownong teying to drown mu soorrow, i dunthink so. Hejjehjejejejeke

Started off quite well and it just gotten slurrier in the end. I don't even remember typing all those down on my phone! Ha!