Flowers blooming

But my feeling hasn't....
What is it that's keeping me back. The fear of commitment? The fear of having a relationship turbulance? Or maybe just isnt him.

Confession of a daughter

This post, sparked by a question asked by my boss of how my Mom managed to power above us. Seriously, my Mom is the gentlest woman you will ever meet. All my friends love her, like the Mom they never had they said.

It's truly a wonder how our relationship is still closely knitted. It's build from age zero. I have stayed away from my parents for my studies for at least 15 years, yet the values my parents taught me stay etched in my mind. This showed how crucial early communication is.

My sister - age 34, my brother - age 32 and myself age 27, you would wonder how the phrase, "I will tell Mom", so often used. It will send us to a little frenzy and send conscious reminder for us to behave. Well, nothing big, mostly stuffs like over shopping, too much eating and lazing, but damn it the 4 words worked like a charm.

My parents believe in the value of communication, endless reminders of what's good and what's bad. It's being told to us thousands of times that whatever we do in life, their words are the first thing we consulted unconsciously. Live with integrity, honesty and dilligence is what matters most.

Hell, presently people believe in sparing the rod. My brother, the most playful of us all, got the rods more often than not. Many disagree on Mom's way of teaching, but I have always believed it's the best. He himself always said, "That would be me if Mom didn't beat the hell out of me", whenever he saw young adults got into young adults problems.

Look at our younger generation, blatantly so rude to elderly, uttering vulgarities at early primaries. Such a sad generation. Mostly is due to parents having no time to take their own children in hand. No time to guide them, communicate with them. Since we were little, we knew Mom would punish us if we utter vulgarities. Until today, it becomes a great habit. What's most important, my parents never used vulgars at home as well.

I have observed from people close to me, there is a type of children who is most disrespectful to everybody, especially to their own parents. Nope, they are not from broken family. These kids, from the public eye, will come from a perfect wealthy complete family. Why are they misbehaving then?

This is where money comes in. Those kids that have unlimited resource of money. Those who knew they can buy anything and everything with their parents money, would think that they can buy the world as well.

Parents, hold your cash!! It's true that you want your kids to be happy. To pamper them in all the most expensive and luxurious things that your money can buy, things that you never had when you were young. You grew up fine without it and your kids would too. Let them know you have the power over your own cash, dont let them threaten you for money that they dont even earn for themselves.


.... Tbc

Geezz.....

Like a chair hit to my face, this verse did the same to my heart. I knew something is wrong with me.

"Don't be someone that searches, finds and then runs away".

Definitely, I am that someone. God help me...

I have...

A random me time here. Some things about me and some memories that I remembered that I myself found strange.



I have caffeine immunity.

When I was younger, I have no carsick, but I do have now. Though I am not seasick.

My first memory of wanting a camera was on my single digit years old. An uncle who was opening a camera shop gave one to my brother. I remembered being so disappointed about it as I was the one who wanted a camera sp badly. Worse of all, my Brother didnt appreciate it.

I remembered being a five year old or younger, sitting on Daddy's lap. Mom asked him if in the end they found out I was accidentally exchanged to another baby at birth, would he want to change me back. Daddy eagerly said no, but if the other baby was in poor family, he would bring her in. That memory lasted me a lifetime and brings me into a stupid grin everytime I thought of it.

My earliest memory of my sister was when my parents were away and I had difficulties getting to sleep. Sis reassured me and slipped a Kwan Im keychain, it was an oval shaped. So beautiful and changes color as I held it. Remembered feeling so grateful of my sister and still is.

I have a soft spot for guys' long and clean fingers. Probably why guitarists always magnetized me.

I have been avoiding Coke and fizzy drinks for the last 6 years or so.

I'm smarter at language than anything else.

I'm pretty good at badminton, singing and throwing sarcastic jokes. Some useless stuffs that comes naturally to me, I must say.

I have a strange liking of being alone at home and when I do, I love to stay in the dark.

Sometimes I felt talking is so tiring.

I have only a number of close friends and sometimes I felt need no more of it.

I once learned to knit and managed to knit myself a shawl. Amazingly I forgot how to do it now. Isnt't knitting like cycling? Once you learn it, you will never forget?

Same way goes to guitar, I learned britney spears' everytime and another indo song semua tentang kita, but I have forgotten them as well...

I have tendencies to live better for others. Like my life is a responsibility I owed to many people I respect and loved, if I dont have these people, iI would move to live in a hole in a cave.

My Sirui tripod

Awww I have never seen a prettier tripod and such a small one! Worth $119 but I have gotten a steal. Practically stealing!!! Lol..
It's so schmall!!! Hahahahah now I'm glad I lost my quick release back in Oz!!

A funny encounter

Some time ago, I attended a party lugging my newborn DSLR. I was still much a beginner and although still is, I was captivated by a friend's friend. I was told he was a TV producer and carried a Nikon D90. I remembered D90 was advertised by Lee Hom, further captivated. No, not the guy, but his DSLR. Well, he spoke well, confident yet humble. He took lots of pictures, around the party. I came back and he added me on Facebook already. I waited to see how his pictures would turn out. A month later. I saw the pictures, shocked me to the very corner of my photograhy learner soul. Everything about the photos wrong, right from the White Balance. Hey, if a no skiller like me could detect it, he would be a worse skiller. That day, I learnt not to be intimidated by pro cameras.

Anyway, I'm waiting for my first photowalk. Been a long time since i brought baby C for a spin. Hope he still remember me. Our souls are almost disconnected! Wish me luck!!!

www.celegifts.com

Have you ever visited the www.celegifts.com. This is a website created by my own 2 lady bosses, due to their love of shopping. They traveled overseas often and get some interesting items back to be sold on the website. Do lend your support and let me know some feedbacks and comments about the website if you have.
It has lots of items for men, women, home, fashion accessories and of course PETS!! That will be my forte, I suggested this category for them and most of the time hands on with the items there. So, let me know if you need anything or have items or ideas you can contribute to help me. This will be my grounds to see how things work online, a learning tool for perhaps to set up one of my own.

P.S. I have limited access to who buy what and when, so if you want to get discount let me know, so I can tweak some discounts for you back-end. See ya!!

Mahatma's 7 dangers to human virtue

1. Wealth without work
We get lazy assholes, like those show off youngsters with rich daddies.
2. Pleasure without conscience
We get infidelity in husbands and wifes who has no thoughts on their spouses.
3. Knowledge without character
We get smart alecs who looked down on less fortunate people.
4. Business without ethics
We get bosses who squeeze their employees, gaining profit with no spare on others' health, safety or loss.
5. Science without humanity
We get cruelty, on human, animals alike.
6. Religion without sacrifice
Let me think about this one, or anyone has a thought of what this means?
7. Politics without principle
We get what else, but corruption and murders of their opponents.