Happy 2013!!!!!

No resolution, just start doing...!

Happy 2013 guys!!! Hope everyday of your 2013 is better than the day before!

21-12-12

Then before he left, he said, "It's not gonna happen isnt't it?". I didnt turn when I asked, "What? The end of the world?! No laahh, you crazy ass!". He kept quiet and when I turned I saw the tinge of hurt and disbelief in his eyes. That's when I realised what he was asking. My turn to keep quiet, really not knowing what to reply him with. The truth or the lie, both will hurt him as badly. In the end, he breathed a deep sigh and the hurt in his eyes deepened. Then his last words to me, Merry Christmas...

My heart winced and hurt as bad too. If only I could love him as much as I hurt for him. That would be perfect. This might be the end of his world with me, but surely another world will begin soon with another girl for him.

April..

Been missing my baby girl from this blog for a while, so here she is...

April girl has been her notorious self all the while. Been hiding in my bag during the weekends when we are out, as she is STILL not cured from her Separation Anxiety. She would rather be stuffed in my bag to go shopping with me! 

Oh, baby girl is blind on her right eye for quite some time now. Seen her bumping into stuffs, mostly on her right. Not letting it affect me so much although it saddened me as it hits the fact that baby girl is getting older now, she will be 9 in 2 months time. I don't think she knows that she is blind, as happy go lucky as she is. I know if it affects me, it will further affects her, so I'm letting her be. Been recommended to go for further tests for her eye, xray and all those. I opted no, as I don't want to torture her any further, she will need to go under GA and stuffs. She is as active as ever, especially at 11pm at night when I'm just about getting sleepy and ready for bed. 

Long overdue pics of Sydney!!!

Went there early September, weather was just right. Sydney was as beautiful as I have ever remembered. The smell of the wind, the feeling of fond familiarity of the city was unbelievably incredible. Still missing it so today. Here are some of my most favorite photos! Enjoy!!

On the way to Orange Picking, Watkins Orchard

Seeing this picture bring tears to my eyes, haven't seen Daddy laughing so heartily in a while....

My fave pic with bro and *ahem* hopefully, future sister in law. We, I mostly love her to bits!!

All of us, my most favorite people in the whole wide world!!

Anddd... what is Sydney without my gang of loveliest friends????

So touched that they came all the way to City on my last night although it was a weekday. Love them all!!

Kinda tiring uploading them all up here, if you are interested, see them all here:

https://www.facebook.com/media/set/?set=a.10151019227142117.424251.533702116&type=1&l=b839c050ab

https://www.facebook.com/media/set/?set=a.10151026428937117.425424.533702116&type=1&l=6d5e5de4db

Tough kids

Seeing the way the kids behaved today reminded me of how my parents would have felt back then. With the strict and stringent way they taught us, I have to salute them we don't grow up hating them. Something they must have done right, will I ever be able to do it the right thing as they did? Seeing my closest niece and nephew behave, strangely familiar yet so unbelievably alien, I worry about how the future would be for my own kids next time.

Lamenting

Biggest remorse in my life right now is the fact that seeing many of my cousins, those that are even less educated than me, making big bucks, slowly and steadily becoming a millionaire, with their own hard work no less. While I am still here, dragging myself from sleep every morning, still not knowing what to do with my life. Still and still...

Self consolation no longer works and I don't even believe my own lies of what matters most is happiness anymore. 

Love our language, please

Always find it irritating how people always say things they don't really know and then make it into another language entirely on their own. Mostly are taken from Malay words and when I asked, nobody actually know what it really means. So, this is my own translation.

Tumpang - To take/ hitch a ride

What they say: longbang, dongbang

Buah Duku - A small fruit that resembles a bruise on the head

What they say: baluku

Pecah - Burst/ broken

What they say: bi jiak

Campur - Mix
What they say: chumpo

Macam - Alike/ similar
What they say: machiam

Also hate the way they like to say: laugh die me, scare die him, or whatever. Such a contagious language and it's all over. Wonder who the hell started it at the first place.

Also they way people say die-ded, done-ded. I don't know, I don't appreciate such things, maybe I'm really getting old.

W3Ll, aT l3aST ThE wAy (no, I cannot continue any further, it's taking a lot of time) kids write this way has died down. Man, I was worried at the speed they can type like that. I used to just call up and scream at my young cousins for writing me such SMS-es, I would get constipation just trying to decipher that.