Jar of hearts

A song I found recently on YouTube. Strong lyrics, apparently the singer wrote it herself over her own love experience. The song itself is a strong reflection of what I wish I can do and be strong enough to do it.

Perri penned the song about a serial heartbreaker she once dated. The singer stated in her blog the story behind the tune: "I wrote the song after I went home to Philadelphia for the holiday last December. I sat in my childhood bedroom and hid from the boy (with the jar of hearts) who wanted to see me. My heart wanted to see him, my head knew better." The song's music video was directed by Jay Martin and was shot on a soundstage designed as a New York City street.

Christina Perri
Jar Of Hearts lyrics

I know I can't take one more step towards you
Cause all that's waiting is regret
And don't you know I'm not your ghost anymore
You lost the love I loved the most

I learned to live half alive
And now you want me one more time

And who do you think you are
Running 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
So don't come back for me
Who do you think you are

I hear you're asking all around
If I am anywhere to be found
But I have grown too strong
To ever fall back in your arms

And I've learned to live half alive
And now you want me one more time
And who do you think you are
Running 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
So don't come back for me
Who do you think you are

Dear, it took so long just to feel alright
Remember how to put back the light in my eyes
I wish I had missed the first time that we kissed
Cause you broke all your promises
And now you're back
You don't get to get me back

And who do you think you are
Running 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
So don't come back for me
Don't come back at all

And who do you think you are
Running 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
Don't come back for me
Don't come back at all
Who do you think you are?
Who do you think you are?
Who do you think you are?

Gaming - My Shops

Been pretty much addicted to gaming since like forever. Not many know this, but I could be stuck in my room without food and drink with lights off from morning till night to play my game during my Uni life. Played hardcore online games like WOW, Diablo, Battlefield, Counter Strike, even Gunbound. Don't even start on my lists of Strategy war games, some stupid girls games that I played for the sake of curiosity. I have always followed SIMS right from SIMS 1, just to see what else can it progress into and how good the graphics could get and how pretty my house could be decorated. Phew, my heart is pounding as I am writing, what a freak!

Now, with Facebook, I am crazy on trying every game I can get my hands on, some I have already deleted as it gets really boring and some have even stopped developing. Today, I had some time on hand, well maybe I can try make myself useful.

Right now, this is what I have on hand, anymore interesting ones?

I have just started playing a new game, My Shops and it's really interesting, at least for now. Check it out. http://apps.facebook.com/myshopsgame/

I like the fact that I don't have to wait until every stock, that is their bread and cakes to be totally sold out to be able to stock some more. That means I can come into the game at any point of time to restock the almost sold out goods. That's cool, not many apps have got this feature. Though I hate how the "energy", in here it's called Love generates every 6 minutes and now at level 7, I have only 15 MAX. I have to log in at 1.5 hours interval so that the Love would not be wasted. Hmm...

I also like how I can build more shops in higher level. Now I can actually build a PET SHOP! But, I don't have any more $$. Cute in-game NPC interactions, decent graphics and sound and buyable things. So far so good, I am still hyped. Interesting ideas on how you have to "create" more people by combining two different characters. Buying stocks takes minutes, instead of hours like other games. It's so cool, you gamers should try it, too...

Defying gravity

*Defying Gravity*

Something has changed within me
Something is not the same
I'm through with playing by the rules
Of someone else's game
Too late for second-guessing
Too late to go back to sleep
It's time to trust my instincts
Close my eyes: and leap!

It's time to try
Defying gravity
I think I'll try
Defying gravity
Kiss me goodbye
I am defying gravity
And you wont bring me down!

I'm through accepting limits
''cause someone says they're so
Some things I cannot change
But till I try, I'll never know!
Too long I've been afraid of
Losing love I guess I've lost

[ From: http://www.metrolyrics.com/defying-gravity-lyrics-glee-cast.html ]

Well, if that's love
It comes at much too high a cost!

I'd sooner buy
Defying gravity
Kiss me goodbye
I'm defying gravity
I think I'll try
Defying gravity
And you wont bring me down!

I'd sooner buy
Defying gravity
Kiss me goodbye
I'm defying gravity
I think I'll try
Defying gravity
And you won't bring me down!
bring me down!
ohh ohhh ohhhh!

In the stars...

Aries, no one has ever accused you of being overly diplomatic. In fact, since you have no compunction about saying what you think, your mouth regularly gets you into trouble. It's true that your verbal outbursts often relieve tension in tight situations, but there are times when kind words are a more effective way to get a point across. Why not try it?

It's written in the stars! What? I don't know how people get through their lives saying what they don't mean. For me, if I don't mean it, I don't say it. As simple as that, neither I go pretending to like somebody when I actually don't. Maybe that's why I have easily counted number of close friends, I might be losing friendship chances with people that will "grow on you" type.

You know, I have been feeling largely guilty about something I did back in November 2010. I was in this very close friendship with these 8 girls, all with the gungho and the cheesy name. We were 'almost famous' during uni time. Then one of the girl, aka bitch stole another girl's boyfriend fiance. It was all pretty maddening, as I was the first one who knew somehow. To cut the long story short, the shameless pair came to the wedding that I was attending. I met them for the very first time and how I hated what they did. All of them hugged and kissed like nothing ever happened. I can't, I just can't! I tried to avoid them, yet the bitch got the nerve to tap me on my shoulder and cheerfully said Hi!

Honestly, I had this battle in my head, whether to say hi back or do something else. So, I turned around, looked at her and then I turned away. From the corner of my eye, I saw her running to that boyfriend she had stolen, and he told her "it's allright", and then they left the party shortly after.

Was I wrong? I know it isn't my boyfriend she has stolen, but as a girl, I can feel the pain. My friend is standing right beside me as the both of them stood hand in hand. Her heart must have sunken, and I refused to accept those people that did this to her. I refused to let them be together in peace, thinking that everybody accepted them. It's horrid, I know.

Thank God, coming out of this traumatic friendship, we found out who is real. Who was willing to cry for us and with us. Thank God for this friends, they are most precious to me.

It's Friday~

and everybody in the office is in a light-hearted mood. Chirpy laughter is all around, it's usually like this, but sometimes the pressure of work and never ending customer demands killed the mood.

Gotten my leave for CNY, will be home for Gong Xi Gong Xi, so looking forward to it!

Bloggers block?

Now I know why, recently I have been watching too much Korean drama, neglecting my book reading. If I don't read, I don't have the urge to write, neither have I the language power to write. Hence, the blank in this blog. Apologies to whoever patiently waiting to hear me, hehehe... I don't think there's many, though...

Will start reading again!
Chiao~

2011!!

1 year no see? Have been a slow start of the new year. Enjoying myself with my aunts who are visiting. Been going out shopping, $$$$ all the way gone. Lots of resolutions to focus on and lots of improvements to make.

Hmmm... Blogging from iphone is not as simple as I thought. That's it for today! See ya when I can catch hold of my PC! Muacks all.